Adoption and In-vitro

We have to have another child. Max needs a sibling. How boring to be an only child. I know our family isn't done growing. May sound easy enough? Not for Shaun and me.

I need to make an appointment with the infertility center and get more information about doing In-vitro with the embryo's we have frozen.

We also need to start the adoption process. It seems so overwhelming to me. It wont be a problem for Shaun and I to adopt a child and love them as our own. It's the process that scares me. It seems so emotionally and financially draining. I really don't know where to begin.

They say that you should tell everyone you know that your looking to adopt. So I'm letting everyone know that Shaun and I would like to adopt. It seems so weird to say that. Hey everyone, If your looking to, or know someone who wants to give up a baby, Let me know. ?!?! It just feels so impersonal to me. It's a good thing to get the word out.

Maybe it could happen naturally this time. I don't know. I do know that we need more children. Some way, some how.

Let the process begin. As soon as I can figure out how, what, and when.

I wish it didn't have to feel so overwhelming and demand so much from us. That's the price you pay. Those are the cards Shaun and I have been dealt. We can do this! We've already been blessed with our Max. I would go through the same long process. With all it's ups and downs. The pain and heartache. To get my Max. I guess that's the beauty of it all. It may be so hard. It may push me beyond what I thought I could do. but you learn that anything is possible with help from above. :)

Maybe by posting this blog post will get me started in the right direction. It just seems so hard.

I need to stop talking and start doing. It could be a long road ahead.....

Maybe I'm not ready just yet. The only problem is, I feel that when I am ready, It would be nice to have the process all ready started.

For now, we'll be enjoying each other and our little family. Hoping that eventually, another will join us. Because I feel that there is another.....

In-vitro- part 2

Shaun's work recently added that they would pay $3000 towards the cost of In-vitro. Sweet! This has gotten Shaun and I really talking about In-vitro again. The good and bad thing is, We have embryo's frozen from our last In-vitro. Which is good. The bad is, The embryo's were not the best, The best ones got used in In-vitro part 1. I've also heard that they are not as good after being frozen. This is all something that Shaun and I will have to discuss with the doctor to get more information. I do know that Max was not supposed to be a great embryo. They only gave us a 15% chance to conceive. Whew...emotions always hit me when I think about that. The whole process of it all and the wonderful prize we got in the end. It was all worth it. I will never forget the feelings I had when we implanted the embryos into my uterus. Looking at the ultrasound screen and seeing these 2 bright little dots. One of those turned into my Max. :) Makes my heart swell with joy. I will never forget the feeling of warmth at that moment. The feeling and comfort of the spirit. I should have never doubted the outcome.
Shaun called the infertility center and talked to billing about what it would cost to do In-vitro this way. She said that it would be about $3000 dollars out of pocket after the $3000 the insurance would pay. Most of the out of pocket expense would go to de-thawing the embryos. That would cost about $1500 dollars. Insurance does not cover this. In-vitro usually runs about $10,000 dollars. $6000 is better then $10,000. Although the chances could be less. The process would be a lot simpler this time around without having to stimulate and harvest my eggs, resulting in my ovaries being over-stimulated and me ending up in the hospital.
I know the chances of conceiving will not be that great. This is something we will have to discuss, pray, and get more information about. I think if it doesn't work out it would be easier this time then last time because we've already had a success the first time around. My Max. Makes me smile every time I think about him.
The process has been started. I don't know when, what, or where just yet. I'm still thinking it all through. Which for me, could take awhile.
I do think it would be cool if it did work out with In-vitro part 2. That would mean that Max and hopefully are future blessing would have come from the same "batch" which means if they were born at the same time they would have been twins. Cool huh? It's fun to think about. It would be fun to tell them later in life about that. Not too soon. That would gross them out to find out what exactly the same "batch" is. (haha)