We have to have another child. Max needs a sibling. How boring to be an only child. I know our family isn't done growing. May sound easy enough? Not for Shaun and me.
I need to make an appointment with the infertility center and get more information about doing In-vitro with the embryo's we have frozen.
We also need to start the adoption process. It seems so overwhelming to me. It wont be a problem for Shaun and I to adopt a child and love them as our own. It's the process that scares me. It seems so emotionally and financially draining. I really don't know where to begin.
They say that you should tell everyone you know that your looking to adopt. So I'm letting everyone know that Shaun and I would like to adopt. It seems so weird to say that. Hey everyone, If your looking to, or know someone who wants to give up a baby, Let me know. ?!?! It just feels so impersonal to me. It's a good thing to get the word out.
Maybe it could happen naturally this time. I don't know. I do know that we need more children. Some way, some how.
Let the process begin. As soon as I can figure out how, what, and when.
I wish it didn't have to feel so overwhelming and demand so much from us. That's the price you pay. Those are the cards Shaun and I have been dealt. We can do this! We've already been blessed with our Max. I would go through the same long process. With all it's ups and downs. The pain and heartache. To get my Max. I guess that's the beauty of it all. It may be so hard. It may push me beyond what I thought I could do. but you learn that anything is possible with help from above. :)
Maybe by posting this blog post will get me started in the right direction. It just seems so hard.
I need to stop talking and start doing. It could be a long road ahead.....
Maybe I'm not ready just yet. The only problem is, I feel that when I am ready, It would be nice to have the process all ready started.
For now, we'll be enjoying each other and our little family. Hoping that eventually, another will join us. Because I feel that there is another.....